When you are not feeling well, you become more sensitive to the fact that many people happily damage their health in pursuit of short term pleasure (alcohol, etc.)
Your fears and enemies, they grow stronger and bigger when you try to escape from them… So buck up and stand up to them, crush them, even if it means lots of pain, but remember, pain is temporary, and the courage becomes part of you.
“Recon: Not for the Weak and Faint-Hearted.”
You really need concrete goals and systems, and a simplified and focused life.